as i sat sadly by her side

nick cave and the bad seeds'in no more shall we part albümünden bir şarkı. 6 küsur dakika sürer bu şarkı. melodisi ve sözleriyle "insanı alıp götüren" şarkılardan biri.

(bizim durumumuzda "as i sat sadly by his side" olarak telafuz edilirse daha vurucu olabilir pekâlâ)

sözleri şöyle:
as i sat sadly by her side
at the window, through the glass
she stroked a kitten in her lap
and we watched the world as it fell past
softly she spoke these words to me
with brand new eyes open wide
we pressed our faces to the glass
as i sat sadly by her side

she said "father, mother, sister, brother
uncle, aunt and nephew, niece
soldier, sailor, physician, labourer
actor, scientist, mechanic, priest
earth and moon and sun and stars
and planets and comets with tails blazing
all are there forever falling
falling lovely and amazing"

then she smiled and turned to me
and waited for me to reply
her hair was falling down her shoulders
as i sat sadly by her side

as i sat sadly by her side
the kitten she did gently pass
over to me and again we pressed
our different faces to the glass
"that may be very well" i said
"but watch the one falling in the street
see him gesture to his neighbours
and see him trampled beneath their feet
all outward motion connects to nothing
for each is concerned with their immediate need
witness the man reaching up from the gutter
see the other one stumbling on who can not see"

with trembling hand i turned toward her
and pushed the hair out of her eyes
the kitten jumped back to her lap
as i sat sadly by her side

then she drew the curtains down
and said "oh, when will you ever learn
that what happens there beyond the glass
is simply none of your concern?
god has given you but one heart
you are not a home for the hearts of your brothers
and god don't care for your benevolence anymore
than he cares for the lack of it in others
nor does he care for you to sit at windows
in judgement of the world he created
while sorrows pile up around you
ugly, useless and over-inflated"

at which she turned her head away
great tears leaping from her eyes
i could not wipe the smile from my face
as i sat sadly by her side
birhan keskin in ba adlı kitabındaki şu satırlar nedeniyle her dinleyişimde iki katı hüzünlenmeme sebep olan şarkı.

sardunyaların, mor şebboyların suyunu vermek için bahçeye çıkıyorum, dilimde sabahtan beri dolanan bir şarkının sözleri. ”as i sat sadly by her side, as i sat sadly by her side… at the window through the glass…”
"en çokı seni sevdim." diyerek suladım saksıların her birini. ipeğe dokunur gibi incecik bir duyguyla. durmanın, oturmanın, yavaş ilerleyen bir zamanın içinden biraz sert bir rüzgar esse sanki kırılıverecek, dağılıp dökülecekmiş duygusuyla."